My bad I’ve been kind of absent lately but my only excuse is that my life has been sort of crazy lately. I’m no where close to being where I need to be but I don’t know what to do to get out of this rut that I seem to be in recently. I mean I know what I got to do but I am no where close to being where I want to go handle the circumstances that need to be handled for me to continue with my life. ugh. Life totally fucking sucks. Why does it have to be so hard to succeed lately? I mean how many times do I wish I could simply go back in time with the knowledge that I have now and live my life, making the choices I should have made.
So today’s quote actually pertains to me and my life. This just so happens to have hit home hard with me about 3 years ago when I found out my wife of 5 years was having an affair. I actually used this post and posted it to my Facebook page. When she saw it she commented on it saying all the things a wife would want to hear so she could feel better about it but the thing is, is that I knew the truth about our relationship and the fact that our marriage was over. Here’s the quote:
“This broke my heart
My biggest fear isn’t that you’ll lie to me one day or that you’ll cheat on me. My biggest fear is that you’ll wake up before me one Tuesday morning and instead of leaning in and kissing me on the cheek, you’ll look at my sleeping body and start to notice all my flaws. My crooked nose, my chapped lips and the stretch marks spread along my stomach and thighs like a road map. You’ll think about my random spouts of jealousy and the fact that I talk too much. You’ll remember how annoying it is that no matter what, I’m always right and just how selfish I can be sometimes. You’ll walk into the kitchen, brew a cup of black coffee, stare at the pale morning rays of sunlight entering the window frame, and come to the conclusion that for no particular reason at all, you don’t love me anymore.”
How can that not tear at your heart-strings and just feel like your heart is being ripped out from your chest. This quote can make anyone who has ever felt the loss love break out into silent tears as they relive that part of their life and make you truly thankful for whoever is now in your life and makes you happy.
Speaking of that special someone thank you Esteban… for making me realize that in every stage of life love is still always possible.